Archive for 一月, 2008

A Life in the Day

一月 30, 2008

前文提過的一份功課.
*為了保護自己以及文中的主角,我將名字稍為改動了一下.

A Life in the Day: Todor Dimitrov

The 26 year-old has just finished The Royal Institute of British Architects (RIBA) part II course this summer in Canterbury School of Architecture, University College of Creative Arts. Originally from Sofia, Bulgaria, he moved to London with his family when he was 6 years old because his father had landed a job here. He is now working in The Aukett Associates as an architect assistant. He is single and currently living with his parents in Southbank.

I get up at 7.15am when my alarm goes off. Then I will head to the kitchen and have some brown bread and fruits for breakfast. I’m very health-conscious, and I love every kind of food that can help me to build muscle and stay fit. After having my breakfast, I’ll get changed and go downstairs to the Southbank to do a bit jogging for about half an hour. I moved to the flat I’m living in now 2 years ago, and I love the view from my room because I can see Blackfriars Bridge and the River Thames from the big windows. My father finally could afford to buy a flat in central London after working so hard for 20 years, since we moved to London from Bulgaria in 1987. We used to rent a small flat in west London, and I was playing football semi-professionally for my local team before I left home and studied interior architecture in Rochester, Kent, for my first degree.

I work in Bethnal Green, so I’ll leave home at 8.15am and walk to St. Paul’s to catch the No.8 bus. I want to have a car, even though I can’t drive, and I’ve always wanted to buy a MINI Cooper Convertible and have it painted in black. It’s been my dream car since I was 10. I’d love to buy a bicycle too, but my parents always warn me how dangerous it is to ride a bicycle on the road during rush hours. Also, as it is so convenient to travel around the city by public transport in London, getting either of them is not my first priority – but getting my own place is.

It sounds odd when I tell people I’m still living with my parents at the age of 26, but I’ve just finished my Graduate Diploma, and I owe a huge amount of debt because of the student loans that I had borrowed over these years. Therefore, it’s very likely I’ll still be sharing the same roof with my parents until I’ve totally paid off my debt. By then, I’ll buy a piece of land in a London suburb, just like what my brother did earlier this year, and then I’ll design and build my own house. My brother, Christo, is 5 years older than me. He’s working as a financial analyst in DVB Bank, so it allows him to afford to buy his own place at such a young age. I admire him very much indeed, but I don’t think I’m under his shadow. He’s always my best friend, as well as my role model.

I start working at 9am, and the first thing I do when I arrive at the office is to get the mug from my table and make myself a cup of hot tea. I’m a tea person, and I can’t start my day without it. After grabbing the tea, I chat with my colleagues and catch up a bit before I start working on the paperwork. I joined the Aukett only 2 months ago, so I have to work very hard to catch up with everything that’s going on in this company. I worked as an architect assistant in a smaller firm for 14 months before I joined the current one, and the work experience I gained in that company is very crucial to my career now.

I specialise in designing architecture with recreational uses. However, I’m too green in this industry to lead on any project at the moment. What do I do when I’m working then? Most likely, when my boss has come up with some new ideas, it’s always my job to draw them on the paper, and do all the calculations to see whether the design is feasible. Time flies by, when it’s 12.30pm, I go downstairs and grab a sandwich from the café nearby, and then head to Victoria Park to catch some sun and enjoy my lunch. I especially treasure my lunch hour when the deadlines of some projects are approaching, because the pressure from work is tremendous. Watching people walking their dogs, jogging, and playing with their kids, this is the only time in the day that I can get away from thinking of my work.

After going back to the office from lunch, I work on some calculations again and get myself prepared for my boss’s presentations to the clients in the afternoon, before having a tea break at 3.30pm. It’s essential to have a tea break because it can re-charge my battery and I can concentrate on my work much more afterwards. Although work can be exhausting, I’m very proud of what I’m doing for a living, and I love my job at the Hamiltons. But, I always have a gut feeling that I won’t be staying and working in London for my whole life. I’m a rather ambitious person, and I fancy working in some other countries that are more vibrant, such as the States, or Japan and Hong Kong in Asia. I’m sure my creativity can be utilised in those places rather than in the UK. ‘Be daring and adventurous’ is always my motto. I really want to broaden my horizons when I’m young and when I don’t have any family obligations.


I leave my office at 6.30pm, but sometimes I do have to stay until 11pm if there are deadlines to meet. After leaving my workplace, you’ll find me hitting the gym in Southwark. I work extremely hard on building up my muscle, because being 5ft 8in, I’m always insecure about my height. On the other hand, I want to burn the calories

that I gained from the alcohol I consumed the night before, too. After working out, I’ll have a hot shower and then head home for dinner. My mom always cooks the best food on earth, she can cook everything and the lamb chop that she cooks tastes the best, I dare say you can’t find anyone who cooks better than she does around the world. I’m going to make sure she’ll give the recipe to my wife in the future.

Speaking of my ‘wife in the future’ – I don’t have a girlfriend at the moment, but I’m not in a hurry to find one. It’s not that I don’t feel lonely. I’d love to have someone to cuddle with sometimes, but I just enjoy being single better – I can hang out with my mates and get drunk whenever I want, without being obligated to ringing someone every now and then to report where I’m or what I’m doing. Also, being single allows me to meet different new people in pubs, and perhaps having some harmless fun with them if the feelings are right.

Although I’ve said that I’m very health-conscious, alcohol is like an addiction or a guilty pleasure of mine – I feel uncomfortable when I haven’t had a drink for more than 2 days. I know it can damage my liver, but I love being in a drunken state, even if the hangover will give me a hard time in the morning. My mates have branded me as a ‘party animal’, but I believe I’ll know when to stop this kind of lifestyle. I’m still young, why not live my life to the full before it’s too late? I will settle down sooner or later, and I want to start my own family at around the age of 35, if I can find the right woman by that time. I hope that when I’m 35, I’ll have enough life experience to qualify me as a good father to my kids: someone who can be a role model, who’s always being around for them guiding them and taking good care of them.

At about 12pm, I go to have a shower, listen to some music and do a bit of internet surfing, before I go to bed. I don’t have any kind of favourite music because I listen to every kind, but I always opt for the softer ones before I sleep. When the lights go off in my room, I love looking out from the windows, seeing the scene of River Thames and St. Paul’s and do some thinking or reminiscing if I can’t fall asleep at once.

-END-

爸爸

一月 29, 2008

我跟爸爸的關係,可說是奇怪得很.

心底裡,我知道他愛我比任何人都要多:他知道我很晚才會去睡,於是半夜2時回家的話會買宵夜給我吃;出差時會買我喜歡的東西;他比世上任何人都緊張我,我亦很愛他,但偏偏每次見到面都會近乎零交流.

過來英國讀書以後,我可以半年沒有跟他說過一句話;我的二三事,我相信也是由媽媽向他交代吧.
其實我也不是說怪責他或是甚麼,只是,我覺得,作為一個父親,他可以做得更加多.
我以為他沒有甚麼話題跟我說,於是我會send我的功課給他看(當然,若他有時間去看的話),令他知道我在這裡究竟在做些甚麼,但send了幾篇,我也只得到媽媽的答覆.

對於和爸爸的關係,老實說,我真的有努力去嘗試.
我嘗試去喜歡他也喜歡的事物,嘗試去接觸他的世界,但很像沒有甚麼進步似的.

青春期時,我跟父母的關係惡劣得很-尤其爸爸-因為我知他寵我,所以一有不合我幾乎想也不想就跟他吵起來;也因為我的性格有70%來自他,太相似,所以我倆也吵得特別兇.
那些荷爾蒙消失之後,我跟媽媽的關係都算還好,至少現在,我跟她可說是以好朋友的方式去相處;但爸爸嘛…還是很疏離.

某部份的我,很討厭他有時’只說不做’的性格,從小到大,我已數不清有多少次他應承了我但沒有做到的東西.
我最記得有一次,他應承帶我去游泳,但pull off at the last minute.
當時還沒有手提電話,我記得他是致電到茶樓找我(當天我先跟外婆飲茶),然後,我記得的,就是他說他要工作,不能來了.
我記得的下一個畫面,就是我哭得很厲害,哀求要見到他,哭了半個小時,但後面有起碼4-5個人排在我後面等用電話.
外婆見我接了電話那麼久還沒有回去,於是到電話那邊找我,然後看到這個哭到淚眼模糊的我,傻了眼,扯了我回家.
那天,我哭了一整天;我當時10歲.

我不肯定爸爸的parenting skills與他來自的家庭是否有關,但我將大部分責任都怪在他的父親身上,這樣,我覺得好過一點.
他不知道如何與我和我的弟弟相處,於是索性放棄-這方法令我和弟弟都覺得很無奈.

我現在喜歡比我年長的男性,很多人也一口咬定是跟我與爸爸關係疏離有關.

家家有本難唸的經吧.

一月 29, 2008

一個星期內工作了4天,另再加2天半上課,我開始支持不到了.
體力損耗還好,睡10個8個小時就可以補回來,但上班時的種種政治,令我覺得很討厭.
他們令我覺得,我工作的那8個小時就是用來面對他們之間的鬥爭/是非,自問並非’是非精’之輩,面對那些只有50%真的事實,我真的覺得光聽他們說都令我都覺得很費神.
又不能不聽,他們可以在我面前將同一件事重覆2000次直到我聽得到為止.

另外,因為有一個supervisor對我很好,於是我被人針對.
針對我的,只那位剛做了3個月的新經理;他一向也不喜歡那位supervisor,無時無刻都在想趕走他,適逢他又對我很照顧,所以我被列入了’那幫人’之中.
我只是個在那裡做生做死去賺£5.35一個小時的小職員,你們鬥權,真的,’關我Q事’?!
唉.
唯有說我歹運吧.

這些都令我想重拾攝影這興趣也沒有時間/體力.

不過,繁忙的生活令我少了很多時間去想無謂的事情,也不用留在這個令我覺得很claustrophobic的’家’.
更好的,就是跟我一起上班的,大多都是很好相處的人,認識到新朋友之餘,我又可以不停地練習英文/普通話.
每次有人令我受不了的時候,我都會想一想這些好處,深呼吸,然後再繼續努力工作.

其實凡事都有2面,就只看你想看那一面罷了.

Happy Ending

一月 20, 2008


This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can’t get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o’clock in the morning, something’s on my mind
Can’t get no rest; keep walkin’ around
If I pretend that nothin’ ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ everyday

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

最近還是覺得有點空洞.
人來人往,何時才找到真正屬於我的?
不甘寂寞,於是不停地約會;與每一位一起快樂一會兒然後再各自繼續走大家的路,就像沒有相遇過似的.

有時候,我會覺得自己已被訓練成為一個很知道他們需要甚麼的人,很熟悉每一個步伐應該怎麼走,然後過了多久以後他們會走,過後我又會消沉多久,然後又與另一個人再重覆一次這個循環.
一切就像在我控制與控制不到之間,這自找的痛苦令我有點無奈.

也許,當處身於一個每人視之為中途站的大都市時,每個人都總會有藉口去逃避’承諾’這碼子的事.
當你連自己下一個月會身處何方也不知道的時候,誰敢跟別人去說天荒地老?

再談人物專訪

一月 14, 2008

聖誕假期前,我為feature writing的那個module做了個人物專訪的功課,題目為A Life in the Day.
這是一個在The Times存在了20年的專欄,基本上就是訪問一個人,以第一人稱去描述被訪者的某一天,由剛起床的一刻,到臨睡前發生的事.
由於有例可循,再加上收到題目的那一刻我已知道自己想訪問那一位,所以對我而言不太難做,並且有信心可以做得好.

結果我的tutor對那篇功課很滿意,令我愉快了好一陣子.

其實主角就是那位建築師,所以我根本沒有進行過任何訪問,我只是憑我的記憶,寫下他那天在Parliament Hill對我說過的所有事.
沒有一個字是我的創作,全都是出自他的口中,想不到我會記得,並且可以將它們組合成一篇1500字的文章.
(你也可想而知他對我說了多少他自己的事吧.)

tutor覺得我做得好,是因為她讀完整篇文章以後覺得我選了一個對極了被訪者,又覺得我很像很了解他似的.
聽到這一句,心真的沉了下來.

其實,這正正是被訪者與記者之間建立關係的重要性:記者得到想要的答案的同時,文章又不會一面倒的將被訪者化作聖人-雖然,我承認,這篇feature算不上一個很decent可以表達這個重要性的例子.

性教育

一月 14, 2008

前幾天在Channel 4看了一個令我目瞪口呆的節目-Virgin School.
它是以紀錄片的形式,講述一個26歲但仍是處子之身的英國男人James在sex coach的教導下,如何預備自己與別人發生性行為.

其實這是一個在荷蘭 Aqurion舉行的課程,專門教男性兩性關係那方面的知識.
由如何接觸女性,到女性的身體構造,又或者如何進行性行為,每位sex coach都身體力行地教導.

令我覺得最不安的,是當其中一位sex coach教導James關於女性的私處時,竟然把自己的內褲脫掉,赤裸裸的讓James研究她的私處;還有另外一位sex coach幫James自瀆,甚至到最後與他發生性行為去令他了解這是怎麼的一回事…

當然,我相信一定會有人需要這樣子的幫忙,不論是因為自信問題也好,又或是文化背景問題也好,總有人不知道如何入手.
這些人可以找到一個可以幫助到他們的渠道,也是好事.

只是嘛,我不明白為何Channel 4會將男主角如何進行第一次也拍下來/播出來-就算這是課程的一部份,也可以給他一點私隱吧?
這個行為令我覺得它們在搶收視率多於真心地想探討這個議題了.

看這個節目的時候,我也在暗地裡感嘆,若果香港的性教育可以完善一點就好了.
在香港接受了19年的教育,都從沒有人教授過我有關避孕的知識,避孕藥如何運作也是現在英國的同學教我的.
性是自然不過的事,我不明白為何要把它當成十惡不赦的東西,家長又或是老師教導時為何要覺得尷尬?

上館子-倫敦篇(2)

一月 11, 2008

Melanie Italian Restaurant


(圖片取自其他網頁)

這家意大利餐館位於West End Charing Cross Road的Phoenix Theatre對面,不太難找,因為與L小姐看Blood Brothers音樂劇所以發現這裡.
店不太大,但似乎是連鎖店式經營,因卡片上還有印有其他不同店名但相信是屬於同一集團的意大利餐館地址.

每次光顧,我幾乎都會吃以下幾樣東西:
1/ Gnocchi al 4 formaggi (GBP 6.90)
用薯仔弄的pasta,弄成一口般的大小,配以4種不同的芝士來煮,喜歡吃芝士的我吃得愉快無比,每一口都覺得幸福感頓生,因為真的很cheesy:P

2/ Risotto del Pescatore (GBP 9.50)
近似西班牙的海鮮飯paella,有蜆肉,青口,蝦和墨魚做材料,鮮味得很.由於在倫敦甚少吃得到海鮮,所以我特別喜愛這個飯,而且它又不太貴.

餐牌價錢已包括VAT在內,但另外會有10%服務費加在帳單中.
服務不賴,價錢尚算相宜,一杯house wine都只是GBP 3.50,在倫敦真的算很不錯了.

Address: 4 Old Compton Street,W1D 4TB
Nearest Tube / Station: Covent Garden, Leicester Square, Tottenham Court Road
Tel:0207 437 4006
http://www.melanieitalianrestaurant.co.uk/

工作的苦與樂

一月 11, 2008

上班帶給我頗多樂趣,雖然,有時候我回到家時會累得連晚飯也不想吃便倒頭大睡.

他們以最低工資聘請我,所以不用說你也知道我的工作就是出賣我的勞力,不用用到我的腦袋.
抹地/洗碗/清理檯面/收銀/沖飲料/做食物/傳菜/倒垃圾…所有你想到要在一間餐館裡要做的,我也要做.
雖然累,但老實說我覺得工作得非常愉快;始終,他們對我的要求也不會太高,我又可以’賺錢買花戴’,何樂而不為?

最大的樂趣,就是可以跟一同工作的人一起談天說地.
他們都來自不同的國家,不同膚色,能夠大家交換大家的文化,談談大家的理想,跟女同事們又會談論化妝美容購物以至到男人的心得,我覺得都是一件很有趣的事.
還有跟他們學怎樣弄食物,怎樣說他們的語言…對我而言,利大於弊.

一同工作的人,大部份我都很喜歡,至少他們不會因為我英文不夠流利而排斥我又或者取笑我,只會解釋多幾篇直到我明白為止.
但管理我們的人,他們都會互相討厭大家,甚至想把我們拖下水去支持他們.
我明白大家會有利益衝突,但老實說,這樣就不能和平共處嗎?
我都知道這個問題有多無知,問出口的人不用想也知道是屬於入世未深的一群.
唉.

所以工作的時候,我都只會做自己的份內事,很多東西,好的,不好的,我笑一笑就算了.
‘事不關己,己不勞心’乃金石良言,錯不了.

2007的回顧

一月 4, 2008

1/ 被人入屋打劫
此乃2007年我自己的頭條新聞.
事件發生的時間距離現在已差不多8個月,所有情景仍然歷歷在目;但說到底,感謝神,亦感激破門入屋的人沒有傷害我,因為,我很清楚,情況其實可以更糟糕.
最感激的,還是所有在我最需要你們時沒有嫌棄過我麻煩的家人與好朋友.
還有LCC Journalism Department的tutor們.
真的,沒有你們,我沒可能那麼快穩定下來.

2/ 糟透了的感情生活
..我不知從何說起,但我會多謝那些令我痛苦到極點的,令我知道甚麼叫做’naivete comes with territory’;但更想對那些幫我拾回自尊的人說聲’對不起’ – i’m really so sorry for my selfishness.
原來,要時間地點人物都對,其實很困難.
但我信’緣份’這回事.

3/ 回到香港
感激弟弟把我從英國接回來,不論何時何地他也是我的精神支柱.
初抵步,很有劫後餘生的感覺.
見到爸媽,舅父,好朋友們時,都只想擁著他們痛哭:因為覺得很溫暖.
整個假期就在吃,還有經K小姐介紹下做了一陣子暑期工,認識了跟我很投緣的老闆娘.
以前都是頭也不回地上機的我,9月份回英國時,第一次有不捨得香港的感覺.
Whatever happens, Hong Kong is still my home.

4/ 到西班牙/意大行旅行
有愉快的記憶,也有到現在仍然令我深深不憤的;但有L小姐做我的旅伴,是我的福氣.
可以週遊列國,是我做夢也沒有想過的事.
我明白自己有多幸運.

5/ 在HUB工作
由11月工作至今,每人都對我很好很好,不論是manager還是supervisor,抑或是同事或者在student union工作的人.
大部份都是年青人,所以不太難去socialise;就算我的英語程度未算完美,生活智慧可算是零蛋,還要完全不懂得弄食物和咖啡的同時,他們也會耐心地教我.
我很感謝他們對我的體諒,對我而言,他們比我在大學裡面認識的人還要容易相處;manager們也教了我很多做人的道理.
很多時我也覺得大家的相處模式很像一個大家庭,因此這份工作令我對UAL/倫敦的歸屬感增加了不少.
雖然薪水不是很多,但已足夠我放假去旅行;最意想不到的,是我可以自己賺錢買機票回香港.

6/ 大學生活
每一秒都很享受當一個journalism的學生,在這個課程學到的,是我在香港一世也學不到的.
由訪問新加入的樂隊,到做法庭新聞採訪,再到做體育新聞攝記…
每一次都是我們自己去安排,學校tutor只負責批改news story;我由衷地享受每一個挑戰,雖然,也令我很緊張.
10月份新學年再開始時我才知道班上的好朋友有多關心我,tutor們有多照顧我.
自己的英文還沒有到可以做英文報章的程度,所以我更感激每個人對我的耐性和特別指導.
我可以說,在英國讀書的這16個月,是我最享受的校園日子.

第一次離家這麼長時間,感覺雖然新鮮,但我學會更珍惜和appreciate家人和好朋友.
2008年我也有幾個resolution,希望我會好好實踐,也希望所有人有一個美好的2008年吧!